BERLIN: Japan star Shinji Kagawa says he is still haunted by the April 11 bomb attack on the Borussia Dortmund team bus.
"I was frightened - and I am still frightened, to be honest," the 28-year-old wrote on his Japanese blog.
"I'm afraid to get on the (team) bus, I am afraid to drive to games."
Kagawa, like the rest of the Dortmund squad, was left shell-shocked when three bombs blasted the team bus on the way to a Champions League quarter-final home match against Monaco.
Defender Marc Bartra needed surgery on a fractured wrist and a policeman was stunned by the blasts, which Kagawa said he "immediately felt" was an attack.
"At that moment, I could not say anything - I could not move," he added.
"I was petrified, - I looked back and saw the shattered window panes.
"I saw Marc Bartra curled up. Like everybody else, I was completely shaken."
The first-leg match was postponed, then played less than 24 hours after the bomb attack.
Dortmund ended up losing 3-2 at home and Kagawa, like many of his team-mates, admits he was playing in a daze.
"In my head was only the scenes from the bus and thoughts of the hellish detonation," he said.
"When we heard the match was to take place the next day, I couldn't imagine playing it -- I don't think any of us could."
The night of the bomb blast, Kagawa said he spoke with concerned family and friends by telephone, but sleep was hard to come by.
"I couldn't fall asleep, although I tried," he added.
"At some point, I dozed and had a dream: it was scenes from the bus, the detonation and broken glass."
Kagawa said he was affected when Dortmund's bus was briefly delayed by French police on the way to the away match in Monaco a week later, which forced the kick-off to be delayed as Dortmund lost 3-1 -- 6-3 on aggregate.
"I was frightened in the bus in Monaco, which drove us to the game," he added.
A German-Russian, identified only as 28-year-old Sergej W., has been charged with the attack and prosecutors have said the motive was financial and not terror-related.
He had hoped to profit from a drop in the football team's share price as a result of the attack and has been charged with attempted murder, setting off explosions and causing serious physical injury.