Shri Nimishananda Guruji laughed and looked at Shanti, who said - “Pujya Guruji, I can’t come here as often as Rohini and Vasudha. Usually after they have had your Darshan, they call us and all of us listen over the speaker phone to the pearls of wisdom that they have gathered at your Lotus Feet. Even this is tremendously enriching for us. But I must confess to you that there is a tinge of envy, lurking somewhere in a corner of my mind. Today Padmaja and I asked whether we could come in with our mother for the interview but we were told that you did not permit it. I began to feel that the Divine Mother was pushing us away. Then envy once again reared its head and I started feeling bad.”
Shri Nimishananda Guruji smiled and said - “That’s why I asked whether you had a competition going on. If I had permitted you to come in with your mother, you would have had just ten minutes with me and then left. Now you stayed on till all the interviews were over and we will be spending much more time together. The Divine Mother never pushes anybody away. How can She do that when we are all truly one with Her?
If you ever feel that Your guru or god are distancing themselves from you, examine your mind minutely. You will discover that it is your own negative feelings and thoughts that are blocking divine grace from reaching you. When your mind is in such a state, it will not admit your guru’s grace even though you may be in his physical presence. If somebody holds a glass upside down below a tap, can they fill it with water ? They have to hold the glass the right way up. Then they can drink as much water as they want. So keep the doors of your heart and mind always open to receive grace. Negative thoughts and emotions bang the doors shut.”
The Guru is a dispenser of medicines. He gives you the remedy required to cure your malady. However, for the cure to take place, you have to swallow the medicine first. How else can it work ? Can you cure a headache merely by hearing the name of the pain killer or simply by looking at the tablet ? Likewise when you practically implement your guru’s teachings, you will be free from vices. If you listen to every thing He says appreciatively, but don’t put it into practice, then no inner transformation can take place.”
Shri Nimishananda Guruji said - “You have been receiving the Divine Mother’s grace and blessings from the very first day that you came here. This grace is also reaching you and the intensity of your envy has decreased.”
Shanti said - “That’s true,
We expect family members to listen to everything we say and fulfill certain obligations. When these expectations are not met, we get irritated. We have fewer expectations of friends and acquaintances and hence give them a larger margin. Expectations lead to agitation.
Agitation causes irritation. Constant irritation brings about palpitations. The cause for all bodily ailments lies in the mind. As long as the mind is peaceful, the body is healthy.”
— This article has been taken from the book Wisdom through the eyes Of Shri Nimishananda by Nimishananda Guruji